Joy Surprised!

OK....way too tired to be doing this right now...so please be patient with me...

If you read my previous post, "Surprised by Joy", you'll already know that God has been blessing my socks off!!! New friends are ministering to my heart and lonliness is daily becoming more and more a stranger. Who knew that having the courage to write an entry for a contest would open up so many doors in my life. Doors of acceptance. Doors of friendship and laughter. Doors of prayer. Doors of openness and accountability. Doors of love.

Last evening the "Surprised by Joy" became, "Joy Surprised". I received a couple of e-mails from precious women whom I love and highly respect and who walk so closely with the Lord. Their life's have shown faithful evidence of listening and following His voice. Through their guidance, support, overwhelming love and affirmation, followed by a sleepless night of wrestling with the Lord, this morning I registered for the "She Speaks" conference.

I am SOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!! Yet, the face of fear continues to be my reflection. So many unknowns loom ahead. I know God wants to deliver me from all my fears. So often the battle is not what's happening around us, but within us. God is calling me to trust Him BIG! My God has been too small. I've known about God, but now He is calling me to KNOW Him. He desires I taste and see that the Lord is good. I've been sampling snacks instead of feasting at the table. I've been relying too often on encountering Him second hand, through great authors, wonderful speakers, and testimonies from heroes of the faith. My life has been more explaining God, not experiencing Him. I've been teaching truth, but God is calling me to living proof.

As Goliath as my fears remain, my God is bigger - He must be. I'm arming myself with my slingshot filled with fearless verses and walking (flying?) to the front lines to see God defeat this giant in my life. Good seats are still available if you want to join me on this adventure. Victory is mine when the battle is the Lords.