I AM

"I Found Joy in a BIG God" Part Twelve

Saturday afternoon I found myself with a little "free" time. I decided to begin filling out the evaluation form included in my "She Speaks" package. I'm not a last-minute-gal. Having served on the "Women Of Grace" conference committee, I also realize the value feedback provides and I like thoughtful time to write extra, encouraging remarks. Although I wouldn't be able to complete it entirely, I could answer the majority of the questions. So I found a comfy chair and pulled out my pen.

Many of the queries were standard, asking the reader to rate the food, accommodation, personal value etc... As I worked my way down the page I came to a question that I interpreted to be asking, What was my #1 take-away from this weekend?

Everything thus far had been above excellence, all done for the glory of God. However, so much of this trip had been about the process that my mind was still reeling over God providing a travel companion and giving me the incredible victory of facing my fears. All else paled in comparison.

As this was only Saturday afternoon, I prayed that if God wanted to reveal any more of His treasures and wonders, He would keep me from missing anything He had prepared for me. I don't want to live in past God experiences - even though they may just be yesterdays delights. I remember asking, 'God, what do You still have in store for me?'

After answering as much of this form as possible, I spent some time visiting with friends and then felt the longing to spend time with my Best Friend. I headed to the Prayer Room. Renee would be sharing after dinner and I wanted to storm heaven on her behalf. I also really needed to sit quietly in awe and reverence before God, in thankfulness for all He had done and was doing for me.

Entering the Prayer Room almost took my breath away. The room was dark, except for some candles casting a gentle glow around the room. Soft music was playing. Chairs, placed in groupings of two, pillows, a sofa, all provided a quiet oasis to meet with Jesus. I bowed my head and had such an intimate time in His presence. It truly was a time of refreshing, sitting at His feet, and expressing my praise to the One enthroned on high.

I discovered later that I missed a precious gift in this sanctuary. On a table against the wall, were placed all the names of those in attendance at the conference. Over the names of all the ladies were placed the various Names of God. Since coming home I heard from a gal who found her name under Jehovah Jireh - God provides. This was exactly how she needed to meet the Lord that weekend - as Provider God. I was wishing so much I had been aware of this beautiful ministry while I was in the Prayer Room, although, I'm sure over my name would have been written, "I AM", as God revealed to me along this journey that He is everything to me.

"And all of You
Is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with your love
And all I have in You is more than enough" (Jeremy Camp)